Letter to my crush

I feel really weird using the word crush, but I can’t think of anything else to call it. So here’s my letter:

Dear crush,
I do not know how long this would last, but I want to to know that I adore you. I didn’t think I would be half in “infatuation” with you five months ago.even when you tease me,I know it’s all part of the package. The way you randomly pat my hand when I am deep in thought is beautiful.
Thank you for making me feel happy when I’m having the shittiest day. Thank you for existing because it has helped me become a happier person and I wish you knew that. I wish you knew that you’re the reason I still try. Your smile lights up the room and your voice is just so soothing. Please never go away, you are so very important to me and at times I feel like I’m the only person who really truly cares about you. It hurts me to know that you will never choose me, but as long as you’re happy, I am too.

Dear Past me.

Dear past me,
I know that you have gone through a lot to be where you are right now. You’ve made so many mistakes and I want to let you know that I have forgiven you. I thank you for making me stronger than I ever was, and for making me who I am today. I do not want to forget you,because you constantly remind me of what life is about, and not to make the same mistakes I did in the past.
Dear Past me, I love you and you were great.